What I'm looking at this morning.

Wake up and see the beauty around you!

So lately I have been unhappy and could not break the downwards spiral I have fallen into. There are so many reasons for my being unhappy, and the truth is that it is mostly due to decisions I made in life. Just like I once knew happiness is a choice, I forgot my own life lesson. Do not even try arguing that you do not always have a choice, because you alwas do. Some choices are driven by responsibility,  others by love, anger or hopelessness...but the fact is you still have a choice. My choices have been out of love, I guess if I had to do it all over, I would make the same choices again for the sake of love.

Last night I hit a low, I was having negative thoughts and wallowing in self pity. I remember reading an article on the internet about optimal amount of sleep that said you should sleep 6.5 to 7.5 hours a night. Being in the state of mind that I have been for so long, I just wanted to get my day over with and go to sleep. Dreaming is my way of escaping reality, going to a place much simpler than life. A place where I can be who I want to be, and do what I want to do. I would sleep untill 7:45, to be ready for work at 8:00 (my work is where I stay). So I got up at 6am today.

I live in one of the most beautiful places,  but I've been so busy trying to make time go by faster that I forgot about the beauty all around me. Not many people have the bushveld in their back yard... today I sit outside looking at the sun comming up over the trees, birds are singing above me, the monkeys are swinging in the trees and earth comes alive to greet me. Why did I forget to choose happiness? I was going through life head down, like you would maneuver through a crowd when you don't want someone to notice you...
I have wished to be invincible so many times, being alone is nice sometimes...not all the time though.

As of today, I will try to be happier,  try to see and appreciate the beauty around me, and  make more time for me, myself and I.

Choose happiness. Love life.

Take a moment...

Good evening to whom ever reads these bolgg's...

Today I thought about the things we do everyday with out realizing... Like walking down the street on a casual Sunday after-dinner-stoll for instance. You walk past so many different people, of all shapes and sizes, and whether you choose to verbalise it or not...you look at them in a critical manner. (This by the way is human. We are curious creatures, and what could be more intriuging than the most complex life form on plannet earth?!)

What most of us say (or think) is, : " Would you look at the pimples on that guys face?!?! " ; " Can you believe the size of that woman on the park bench! Hell someone call the SPCA! We have a beached whale in town! " >>>I've heard worse things being said by people<<<

You know, the irony in this is that most of the time the things we say and think about strangers are present in our own life's. You could be a bit over weight, and say you're just cuddly...but the moment you see some one else like you, you see them as fat n ugly.

OR Sitting on the couch watching T.V with a few friends. During the add break you see a woman with anorexia and with out thinking say :"These anorexic chick's are hideous. We said maintain a healthy weight, not starve your self into a size 0!"
Moments after you've said that, you realize your friend sitting next to you on the couch battles with anorexia every day...

My point is that we are so easy to judge, but more than half the time we are either in the same boat, or we know some one in that boat.

Isn't it strange though? We accept the fat, ugly, sick and deformed people in our own lives, whether it be a family member or a friend. Whilst we criticize and avoid strangers we see on our Sunday after-dinner-stroll, and that fat girl in the club.

I would love a world where this is all null and void, but unfortunately that can only be possible in heaven or some great parallel universe...

So next time you see the 'ugly' girl at class, or the fat guy having his lunch on the side walk, why not just say :"Hey!" with a smile? Or take a moment from your busy day to talk about the weather... You never know, you might just make their day.

Be the black sheep! ;)

Take a moment to sit on this for a while... For those who have already over come this, think back, ok...

As strange as this may sound, the other night I got out the shower and as I walked passed the mirror I glanced at myself standing there. As per usual I stop to critically look at my body and what I need to improve on it.(This of course is a minor, because I know that I need to loose some more weight to improve my health.)

Then I took it up a notch, looking at things that I can not change. It came to me that I found flaws on my body that does not exist. We are so used to comparing our selves with the models in magazines, that we see flaws that do not exist. But we create these obsessions in our minds. We all want to look like THEM.
I mean you can take a perfectly normal girl with an amazing figure and make her believe that there is something wrong with her, by showing her pictures of what people look like in magazines and in the media.

I think in the end we all just seek acceptance, love and a feeling of self respect. There is the illusion that we will be generally accepted and loved if we are so skinny that we look sick, have plastic surgery done and change our lives.

I say, love yourself for who you are. Don't try to fit in...cause when you look like all the rest, what makes you unique? If you become like all the rest, think of how easily you can be replaced in any relationship or community.

Be bold, stand out, love you for you and the world will too... But most of all...remember to live life at large!

Back To Basics

When you live a life of haste and turmoil... we tend to forget our roots, where we came from and who our creator is. All of us are guilty of saying we are to busy for religion or we need to attend a show on Sunday, instead of going to church.

But, have you ever thought of it in a different light...God never puts your life and your prayers aside to finish watching his favorite sopie, nor does he hide your concerns in a drawer to go have some fun in the sun whilst you worry yourself sick.

Al tough people might think this is true, it is not. Have you not once thought that if you always got what you wanted immediately after you asked for it, that it could have been disastrous...?
God is omniscient, and he has a great plan for your life. If you always get what you want, how can God use you for the purpose he has planned before your birth...?

People are the only specie that changes for the worst, endangering not only us and virtually all life on earth, but also our home (Earth).

We need to remember our roots, manners, values, and learn to make God a big part of our lives again. The best way to describe what we should be like is to visualize our souls as being a candle... When life gets dark you need to light your candle, which enable you to see in the dark, and be strong in facing the demons of life. The only thing that can ignite your soul is God...let him be the source of light in your life, for you can not find it elsewhere.

The last part about your light source, I heard our pastor say in church last week. I just revised it slightly.

Keep believing... Keep the faith alive

Building that bridge...

So things don't always go our way and every day decisions we make can have a much larger impact on those around us... Usually we think that we do something and that's the end of it, but then your decision has effects on other people later on like ripples in a pond.

Think things through well, some times I guess we all feel a little down and depressed when things go sour or not your way... All that I found to be a good remedy for that is to go sit down in a corner, feel sorry for yourself, think about it till your head hurts, make a decision, get up, build a bridge to the other side and make it go away.

Taking charge of your emotions and taking responsibility for your own happiness is all you can do to stop your self from going in too deep, and ending up in a place you'd rather not be.

So tonite I say that no one has MY permissoin to upset me. And no one will... =)

In loving memory of my best friend...

This absolute beauty in the picture, is my cat Zea... she was not only my pet, she truely was my best friend.

A cat instantly calms you down when you look at them...

They are clean creatures, so majestic and royal...

I loved to spoil her with all kinds of yummy treats and kitty toys. I can still remember that call, and the feeling I got when I saw her lying there... But luckily I have great memories of her... and she will always be my favourite pet I ever had.

To all you pet owners out there...give them an extra big hug, just cause you love them and you don't know if they will come running the next time you call them.

Lots of animal love!!! =) ***