What I'm looking at this morning.

Wake up and see the beauty around you!

So lately I have been unhappy and could not break the downwards spiral I have fallen into. There are so many reasons for my being unhappy, and the truth is that it is mostly due to decisions I made in life. Just like I once knew happiness is a choice, I forgot my own life lesson. Do not even try arguing that you do not always have a choice, because you alwas do. Some choices are driven by responsibility,  others by love, anger or hopelessness...but the fact is you still have a choice. My choices have been out of love, I guess if I had to do it all over, I would make the same choices again for the sake of love.

Last night I hit a low, I was having negative thoughts and wallowing in self pity. I remember reading an article on the internet about optimal amount of sleep that said you should sleep 6.5 to 7.5 hours a night. Being in the state of mind that I have been for so long, I just wanted to get my day over with and go to sleep. Dreaming is my way of escaping reality, going to a place much simpler than life. A place where I can be who I want to be, and do what I want to do. I would sleep untill 7:45, to be ready for work at 8:00 (my work is where I stay). So I got up at 6am today.

I live in one of the most beautiful places,  but I've been so busy trying to make time go by faster that I forgot about the beauty all around me. Not many people have the bushveld in their back yard... today I sit outside looking at the sun comming up over the trees, birds are singing above me, the monkeys are swinging in the trees and earth comes alive to greet me. Why did I forget to choose happiness? I was going through life head down, like you would maneuver through a crowd when you don't want someone to notice you...
I have wished to be invincible so many times, being alone is nice sometimes...not all the time though.

As of today, I will try to be happier,  try to see and appreciate the beauty around me, and  make more time for me, myself and I.

Choose happiness. Love life.