Be the black sheep! ;)

Take a moment to sit on this for a while... For those who have already over come this, think back, ok...

As strange as this may sound, the other night I got out the shower and as I walked passed the mirror I glanced at myself standing there. As per usual I stop to critically look at my body and what I need to improve on it.(This of course is a minor, because I know that I need to loose some more weight to improve my health.)

Then I took it up a notch, looking at things that I can not change. It came to me that I found flaws on my body that does not exist. We are so used to comparing our selves with the models in magazines, that we see flaws that do not exist. But we create these obsessions in our minds. We all want to look like THEM.
I mean you can take a perfectly normal girl with an amazing figure and make her believe that there is something wrong with her, by showing her pictures of what people look like in magazines and in the media.

I think in the end we all just seek acceptance, love and a feeling of self respect. There is the illusion that we will be generally accepted and loved if we are so skinny that we look sick, have plastic surgery done and change our lives.

I say, love yourself for who you are. Don't try to fit in...cause when you look like all the rest, what makes you unique? If you become like all the rest, think of how easily you can be replaced in any relationship or community.

Be bold, stand out, love you for you and the world will too... But most of all...remember to live life at large!

Back To Basics

When you live a life of haste and turmoil... we tend to forget our roots, where we came from and who our creator is. All of us are guilty of saying we are to busy for religion or we need to attend a show on Sunday, instead of going to church.

But, have you ever thought of it in a different light...God never puts your life and your prayers aside to finish watching his favorite sopie, nor does he hide your concerns in a drawer to go have some fun in the sun whilst you worry yourself sick.

Al tough people might think this is true, it is not. Have you not once thought that if you always got what you wanted immediately after you asked for it, that it could have been disastrous...?
God is omniscient, and he has a great plan for your life. If you always get what you want, how can God use you for the purpose he has planned before your birth...?

People are the only specie that changes for the worst, endangering not only us and virtually all life on earth, but also our home (Earth).

We need to remember our roots, manners, values, and learn to make God a big part of our lives again. The best way to describe what we should be like is to visualize our souls as being a candle... When life gets dark you need to light your candle, which enable you to see in the dark, and be strong in facing the demons of life. The only thing that can ignite your soul is God...let him be the source of light in your life, for you can not find it elsewhere.

The last part about your light source, I heard our pastor say in church last week. I just revised it slightly.

Keep believing... Keep the faith alive

Building that bridge...

So things don't always go our way and every day decisions we make can have a much larger impact on those around us... Usually we think that we do something and that's the end of it, but then your decision has effects on other people later on like ripples in a pond.

Think things through well, some times I guess we all feel a little down and depressed when things go sour or not your way... All that I found to be a good remedy for that is to go sit down in a corner, feel sorry for yourself, think about it till your head hurts, make a decision, get up, build a bridge to the other side and make it go away.

Taking charge of your emotions and taking responsibility for your own happiness is all you can do to stop your self from going in too deep, and ending up in a place you'd rather not be.

So tonite I say that no one has MY permissoin to upset me. And no one will... =)

In loving memory of my best friend...

This absolute beauty in the picture, is my cat Zea... she was not only my pet, she truely was my best friend.

A cat instantly calms you down when you look at them...

They are clean creatures, so majestic and royal...

I loved to spoil her with all kinds of yummy treats and kitty toys. I can still remember that call, and the feeling I got when I saw her lying there... But luckily I have great memories of her... and she will always be my favourite pet I ever had.

To all you pet owners out there...give them an extra big hug, just cause you love them and you don't know if they will come running the next time you call them.

Lots of animal love!!! =) ***

What I do when I'm bored

So it's rather late...and I'm wide awake as I slept all day long not feeling well, and in the bored state that I am, I do this kind of stuff...

Hahaha it looks like a kid did this. But I think it's awesome! I'm proud of my very own kiddy drawing... =)

All smiles and ready for bed... to fall asleep and meet the people inside my head. Tomorrow we can all wake up to a fresh new day filled with the oppertunity to make it a super-fantastic Saturday!

What is living life at large...

Well... Let me start by saying that no one can upset you or make you feel sad with out your consent. Because you controle your own life and make all the desicions in it yourself. I have decided that I want to be happy and independant and start my own life. So with absolutely nothing but the clothes in my bag, I traveled to the city (over 700km from my home) to look for a better life and happiness. Before I left home I had people in my ear telling me crazy things, like I will never make it, I don't know city life, crime will eat me alive, ect. I just said to myself that I am going to make it and show all those people breaking me down wrong.
It has been just a little over a month in this so called horrible city and I have been short listed for a great job at an amazing company, I have found love, found God and reached a whole new level of maturity.

Things aren't final yet, but I'm sure thy will be. Cause just look at what I have done for my self despite other people breaking me down.

And I have to give credit to those in my life that have helped me and that support me all the way, Thank you all so much!! I'm not going to make a list, you know who you are.